Today i was struck by how wicked we, as a humanity, are. I always want to believe the best about people, but today i got a serious wake up call. I always thought that the reason why people who don’t eventually turn to God have some reasons why, and if they only had the right circumstances, they would’ve chosen Him. If they’ve only seen God do this, or that, or if this or that Christian would’ve been nicer to them they would’ve stayed with God (although we also have a part to play in it, but ultimately it is everyone’s decision what THEY choose to do), etc. It was inconceivable for me to think that some people don’t want to choose God because they just don’t want to. I’m glad that God in His goodness disappointed me so i can see the lie i’ve been believing for so long. (oh God, rid me of my opinions; i want Your truth, Your evaluation of things). The truth is that all of us are evil, wicked and we love to be that way, and God is right in punishing us. The partage is when some choose to turn and hate evil, and some continue to love it.
For those who continue to love evil He punishes them by giving them the desire of their heart. Evil they want, evil they’ll get in the end, but with a twist. Evil will be exposed in the lake of fire as it truly is, and that is: hurt, pain, suffering, loneliness, etc. There will be no more grace to comfort them in any way, when they’ll see that stealing, killing, lieing, hating, gossiping won’t satisfy them. They will be left empty, full of constant, eternal disappointment. And the saddest thing is they’ll know that only God can satisfy, but He won’t be there anymore.
“And this is the judgment: the light has come into the world, and people loved the darkness rather than the light because their works were evil. 20For everyone who does wicked things hates the light and does not come to the light, lest his works should be exposed. 21But whoever does what is true comes to the light, so that it may be clearly seen that his works have been carried out in God.” John 3:19-21
“For the wrath of God is revealed from heaven against all ungodliness and unrighteousness of men, who by their unrighteousness suppress the truth. 19For what can be known about God is plain to them, because God has shown it to them. 20For his invisible attributes, namely, his eternal power and divine nature, have been clearly perceived, ever since the creation of the world, in the things that have been made. So they are without excuse. 21For although they knew God, they did not honor him as God or give thanks to him, but they became futile in their thinking, and their foolish hearts were darkened. 22 Claiming to be wise, they became fools, 23and exchanged the glory ofthe immortal God for images resembling mortal man and birds and animals and creeping things. 24Therefore God gave them up in the lusts of their hearts to impurity, to the dishonoring of their bodies among themselves, 25because they exchanged the truth about God for a lie and worshiped and served the creature rather than the Creator, who is blessed forever! Amen.
26For this reason God gave them up to dishonorable passions. For their women exchanged natural relations for those that are contrary to nature; 27and the men likewise gave up natural relations with women and were consumed with passion for one another, men committing shameless acts with men and receiving in themselves the due penalty for their error.
28And since they did not see fit to acknowledge God, God gave them up to a debased mind to do what ought not to be done. 29They were filled with all manner of unrighteousness, evil, covetousness, malice. They are full of envy, murder, strife, deceit, maliciousness. They are gossips, 30slanderers, haters of God, insolent, haughty, boastful, inventors of evil, disobedient to parents, 31foolish, faithless, heartless, ruthless. 32Though they know God’s decree that those who practice such things deserve to die, they not only do them but give approval to those who practice them.” Romans 1: 18-32
This is God’s evaluation, not mine. In fact, i had to repent for believing that man cannot be held accountable for his choices. Oh, he is so much so, that he is punished with eternal torment if he doesn’t repent and turn to God. And he not only goes to be away from God in hell because he deliberately chooses to be separated from God, but because he deserves it. God wouldn’t be God, and He wouldn’t be just if He punished someone with something they don’t deserve. The punishment of eternal hell is just and right, and God is good for punishing anyone who loves evil.
And here’s the epitome of God’s goodness. He asks me to love and bless those who hate Him. He chose to do that when He died on the cross. While we were still sinners, His enemies, He came to die for us. He is such a lover, that even till the last minute, second, He beckons them by His goodness. And because i know this, i have the responsibility to be like Him. To bless, to love and to hope until the last minute. Love hopes all things 1 Cor 13:13.
Some people say they don’t think God is good because He lets us experience suffering. First of all, it’s what we deserve, and second of all it is actually God’s kindness that He let’s us have a piece of our cake so that we’ll wake up from our comfortable life. Comfort is the perfect breeding ground for selfishness. Why? Because if it doesn’t hurt me, i don’t care. But when i get a little “ouchy” i think twice about helping my neighbor who’s going through the same “ouchy”. The epitome of wickedness is when we get through the trying situation and we have to help someone else who’s suffering, we just look the other way. I do that sometimes, and i don’t even know it. Wickedness is so rooted in me that it’s a way of being for me. I forget what i’ve been through, so i can’t sympathize. (God, please let us have a bit more “ouchy’s” so that we’ll love more, and in return because they see us love like you love, they would turn, and they won’t have to be eternally punished with your absence)
I see that we can be wicked even after we are born again. We choose God because we understand that there’s no other way to be acquitted from eternal guilt and punishment, but then we cruise along, refusing to be transformed from the inside out. It is wickedness and evil if i don’t give God all that He died for: all of my heart, all of my mind, all of my soul and all of my strength. I don’t want to continue to live in something that is foul, destructive, evil!!! I want to kill that old me. Hit it, kick it, nail it, slice it and dice it, till it’s completely dead, for good. Radically eradicate sin, that foothold evil has in me. I want to hate evil with everything in me by surrendering to God, completely. In love. I want to fight evil with love.
“Put to death therefore what is earthly in you: sexual immorality, impurity, passion, evil desire, and covetousness, which is idolatry. 6 On account of these the wrath of God is coming. 7 In these you too once walked, when you were living in them. 8But now you must put them all away: anger, wrath, malice, slander, and obscene talk from your mouth. 9 Do not lie to one another, seeing that you have put off the old self with its practices 10and have put on the new self, which is being renewed in knowledge after the image of its creator… Put on then, as God’s chosen ones, holy and beloved, compassionate hearts, kindness, humility, meekness, and patience, 13 bearing with one another and, if one has a complaint against another, forgiving each other; as the Lord has forgiven you, so you also must forgive. 14And above all these put on love, which binds everything together in perfect harmony.”
Love is the answer to this disease called wickedness. Love until the very last breath. Love until love is awakened.
I want to encourage you to keep fighting for love. It will be so worth it.